i have been trying so hard to find happiness lately. i feel like the more i try to find it, the more i become unhappy, if that makes sense. i don’t know, i just feel like in general i don’t live a fulfilling life and i try so hard for nothing. i want to be happy and carefree and thankful for all that i have, but it’s not easy.
valencia is playing on the day of my 18th birthday. i feel like i should be doing something more on that day, but i will probably wind up going. i don’t know.
random thoughts on growing up.
i find when i wake up, and i don’t know why at this particular moment i am concerned with these thoughts, but i realize that i will no longer be as young as i am at that particular moment and i will never be a child again. it’s a frightening thought to me. i don’t want to be responsible and go to college and have to be able to support myself and shit. i want to be this gullible...
guess what? NO SCHOOL. AND I GOT ALL READY WITH THE CAR STARTED AND ALL TO FIND THIS OUT. well i guess i will be watching little kid movies all day though. =)